May 06, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!

Someone I know shared this several years ago when I became a mum, and it all rang so true.

Before I was a mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations. Before I was a mom - I had never been puked on...pooped on...chewed on...peed on . I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept ALL night . Before I was a mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests; or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a mom i never held a sleeping baby just because i didn't want to put them down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when i couldn't stop the hurt . I never knew something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a mom.

Before I was a mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't
know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. Before I was a mom- I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure they were okay. I had never felt the warmth , the joy, the love , the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a mom.

I didn't know i was capable of feeling so much - before I was a mom...

I'll add a few things that I never knew about 'before I was a mom' to my darling Finley, who crazily enough will soon be four. This is my note to her.....

I never knew that seeing you wrinkle up your nose and smile would make me giggle so much. I never knew that hearing you say your first real word "baby" would make me long for you to stay a baby forever. I never knew that hearing you sigh as you fall asleep would be the most wonderful sound on the planet. I never knew that hearing you say "Mummy" in your sweet voice could make everything else go away. I never knew that feeling you rub my arm with your thumb, as you do when you are nervous, would make me feel so protective of you. I never knew that I could listen to the same lullaby CD over a thousand times and not go mad. I never knew how obsessed I would become over what was on your dinner plate. I never knew how much I would enjoy shopping for your clothes. I never knew that I would become master entertainer, puppeteer, dancer, storyteller and more. I never knew that I could feel so completely inept and within seconds also feel like I could do no wrong, and had superhuman strength, because of you. I never knew what a true good soul was until seeing you cheer on everyone else at the playground, while you chose to sit at the sidelines. I never knew what quiet time really meant. And mostly, I never knew how much you would change my life and the path that I take. I am a better person because of you, dear Finley.

Happy mother's day to some of my favorite mothers!!


  1. I got all teary-eyed reading that. It's all so true. And that's so sweet that you wrote your own to Finley. I hope you have a great Mother's Day!

  2. Goosebumps. Well said Mama. Love Finley's lucious locks:) Happy Mommy's Day Shari.

  3. I got teary eyed too. That was very heartfelt. Thanks for sharing. Happy Mother's Day!
    My daughter's first word was baby also.

  4. Okay, Shari ~ you made me all teary eyed reading your note to Finley... Its amazing the love that we feel as moms, isn't it?!